procrastination...

wow. it has been a while since i studied for real school (college days before finals). in my in-btwn years off when i took stupid pseudo classes, any pseudo studying never brought on the real stress.

ugh! i just briefly went through what i should probably know by tomorrow morning for my physio exam- oh my god, there is a LOT of stuff. granted, what i had to know for a physio exam back then at the u of c was probably more in-depth and demanding than this, i am still very nervous. i dont know how much i have to know!! first time jitters? maybe. some upperclassmen kept saying that physio is not a class you should cram for- must pace self well and keep up constantly. oh well, a little late now, eh? i have some old exams but it doesnt boost my confidence when i only know half. there is a big bell curve so it is very hard to get an A in that class; however, they also said that since it is a such heavily weighted class, it only does you good to get an A.

AAAHHHHHH!!!!!

what if i dont finish studying? what if i keep getting distracted? its sunday- there are plenty of sports to watch this afternoon! noooo!!!! what if i dont get an A- i will be the same as those people who only did the most basic courses at random community colleges??? are you telling me that my parents' millions went for nothing? what if i cant learn anymore?

and it stressed me out even more to think about how much i have to pack and clean.

ok, must ignore self. after tomorrow 12:30p all will be better; i get to work all night, then study and STRESS all over again for the med chem exam on tues and think about having to pack. life loves me!!!