sorry, mate...

what a stupid day today. first, almost rear ended someone TWICE, in succession, within 5 minutes of each other, this morning (sorry, andy and donna, this aint nothing compared to yall's adventure...). of course, its always other people's fault when i am behind the wheel-- didnt they tell you to drive defensively so that you will not have to slam on the brakes when you see pedestrians, so that you will not be killed by the driver behind you??? stupid. :p

then in the afternoon, called to greet a friend who took the GRE today. instead of shopping at h&m, she bitched about how crappy she did and will never get in some program she wants to do at NU (stupid NU!) and she has no idea what to do for life. i was just like, dude, even though you are 22 and act like you are 16, there is no reason you should know exactly what you wanna do for life. you take and give life one day at a time and see what surprise it has for you and make the best out of whats available! you dont need to plan it all out! one morning you will wake up and something will strike your fancy and you go chase after it. until then, life is still good as it always is and should be. whatever.

after such unnecessary blood pressure elevation, i decided to have a quiet evening with me. i went home shopping and bought very exciting new bed sheets for the new bed that i will hopefully buy soon (still need duvet and cover...) and a baking dish that polish basia will be proud of me for. came home, cooked for the first time in like 3 wks, ate my dinner, followed with strawberries. all was good... was about to catch up on harry potter, until one of the most boring phone calls of my life arrived....

so its from this one pseudo guy friend i had. he used to live out in arlington hts but decided that he was unsatisfied with his job and joined the military and had been training in GA ever since feb. anywho, his mom and my mom are good friends and that's how he and i met. ugh, i bet the moms never had good intentions!!!!! >:( my friends that have met him and i always found him to be creepy and, unfortunately, never completely enjoyed his company. again, a VERY VERY nice guy, just weird.

so we small talked- he asked about life, work, school, any new friends and stuff. he had forgotten that i got the new job at starbucks in old town. hes like, oh yeah, thats where all the rich people live, i bet you are meeting lots of lawyers, doctors... etc etc. i was like, um, not really, usually its old weird guys that hit on the young female baristas. then he's like, WHAT?? a cute, attractive girl like you and no one is after you?? if i were any of them, i would've asked you out long time ago!! (me, thinking, oh god, this is essentially why i had been avoiding his calls all this time!) i was like, well, whatever, its not like the store is all guys- there are other girls that other guys talk to equally!! hes just like, i would've asked you out a long time ago. (me, thinking, oh shit! no!) blah blah blah... then many discussions about going after someone, giving up something for someone. somehow dr phil came up and he became very angry, and was like, i wanna beat this guy up and he doesnt know his elbow from his ass for not asking you out. oh god, trying lighten the mood, i was like, well, hes a med student, he has to know his elbow from his ass. even i know his elbow from his ass! then hes like, so i've gotta be honest here...

so basically he told me how he really liked me and if he had known that we might even had the slightest chance, he would've stayed in chicago. oh god oh god. back then i was interested in someone else so he claimed that he didnt wanna do anything. but he was kicking himself for not having taken the chance. and hes like, i would've joined the reserve and train one day a week and i could've been in chicago instead stuck here in GA. i was just like (in a calming voice), dude, whats meant to be will be!! the past is the past, and life moves on to newer, better things with newer, better people!! sigh... i felt bad, but i was just like (to self), i was never even remotely attractted to him in any ways like that. we were barely friends and i was never comfortable around him and even if we had gone out on one "official" date i am not sure if anything would emerge. what a weird phone conversation!! i hated it!!! ack!

now his mom is trying to let my brother and his sister become friends!!!! STAY AWAY FROM MY FAMILY, you weirdos!!! my brother is so cute he shouldnt have to deal with weirdos!!!!

am i too emotionless? why does it annoy me when someone clutches on to their past and cant seem to move on? was not even anything important! not saying that i never wished that i had taken a chance with something or someone new-- i do, all the time, but you'd think after 6+ months, it should be forgotten or ignored in the back of your head?